Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Our Newest Addition (and all the other little things)

This may come as a shock to anyone that reads my blog.. 
But its been a while since I've updated this thing! 
Let me fill you in on our lives.

Lets break it down into a few subjects.
Scotty, Me, Hailey, Avery, and Moving.

Scotty:
Scotty is doing great!
In September 2014 he started his new job in Twin Falls.
He's still working as an Assistant Manager and most of the time loving it.
He started on nights in February and he is loving it! 
Its definitely not my favorite thing, but I do enjoy the fact that he loves working nights better than working on the day shift. 
I can't say that I blame him.
He told me that he just feels like he can get so much more accomplished and he doesn't have to worry about customers stopping him during the day while he's trying to get things done.
I miss my husband, but I love that he enjoys going to work.
Another huge thing in Scotty's life right now is his forge! 
We're living in an apartment right now so there's no space for him to setup a forge here, but we're very fortunate that my parents live so close and they are willing to let Scotty have one at their house instead.
One of my favorite things these last few month was to see the excitement that Scotty has towards being a blacksmith and making this a real hobby of his.
Not only that, but I love seeing the bond that was strengthened between him and my dad. 
My dad has been just as excited about it as Scotty and they've been working on ideas of how to get things going together! 
(Although I can't take credit away from my husband because this was 97% of his work and he only had a little bit of help from my dad.)
Finally Scotty got it set up and he's now ready to start making things.
This last time that we were able to go to visit my family he started making a sword! 
Hes been wanting to make one for a while so I'm hoping that he can get it done soon.
We just need to be able to make a few more trips to my parents house in the next few weeks.
Here are a few pictures of Scotty's workshop.
So this is a picture of the outside.
Scotty built all of this out of scrap wood.
He made the door, put in a removable window, a spot for the air to ventilate and he attached some tin roofing for the top.
I'm really proud of the work that he put into this! 
 Here's a good picture to show the forge itself.
Scotty and my dad worked on this a lot together and it was fun for my dad to be able to show him a few things and help bring it together.



Scotty also made that anvil stand and the little shelf to the left.
I know that he has more that he wants to add to it, but it really does look amazing so far and it will only keep getting better as time goes on.

I think those are the main points for Scotty.
His work, his family, and his forging are the most prominent things in his life right now.


Me:
I wish there was a lot that I could add to this section, but I think its going to be pretty short.
My daughters are the main thing in my life right now.
I love being able to stay at home with them and now that we've had Avery for a couple of months I'm starting to adjust and I'm finally getting a little bit of a schedule down.
One of the main things that I want to do is to work on structuring my day better.
I've had a hard time with this lately because of Scotty's weird work schedule, but I think that once I get it down everything will start to flow better.
I need to start by going to bed earlier.
I always wake up so tired and I don't feel as energetic throughout the day because I manage my sleep poorly.
Adding a newborn to that already flawed schedule didn't really help.
I think that when I get that figured out better then I will be able to put things into place after that.
With this structure and warm weather coming (hopefully very soon for both of them) I want to try to include a daily craft with Hailey and a plan to go do something outside every other day.
If you have any ideas for crafts that we can do, please post it in the comments below or on the link I posted to Facebook! 
I'm going to need all sorts of ideas.
Another thing that I'm going to try to do now is get better at my blogging. 
I want to update family more, but I also want to start adding my own tutorials.
I'm definitely not a professional seamstress, but I love that crafts that I do and I want to be able to show people how to do certain crafts even if they don't have amazing crafting skills either.
I also want to be able to get those tutorials out there for free!
I love finding new patterns online, but there are so many cute ones that you have to pay for and I'd just like to put some of my own out there so that people don't feel like they have to pay to be crafty.
Making kids clothes or re purposing your own to fit better shouldn't cost money (other than the purchased supplies) in my opinion. 
I want to be able to show that you can live thrifty, but still have nice things.
And I love the idea of making more of our own clothes!
Not only do I want to do clothes, but I have other projects that I work on such as headbands, wreaths, re purposing lamps, re purposing furniture, making pillows, blankets, baby burp rags, rugs, curtains, wood signs, painting projects, and the list goes on.
I just feel like I'm at a place in my life where I can start to take on more to feel like I'm spending my extra time wisely.
Don't get me wrong, I love my Netflix and Hulu shows, but I need to feel like I can do more.
I have the time for it, I just need the motivation.
Another big thing in my life is that I want to start exercising! 
By no means am I overweight, but I've had two kids and I know there is definitely some body fat to be shed after both of these pregnancies. 
We've started eating healthier (90% of the time) so I think that now its time to put the effort into the next step.
One thing that I love about where we're living is the fact that they have a gym! 
It brings convenience to my life knowing I can just leave the girls with Scotty while I go to work out for a short period of time.
We also live less than a mile from a canyon trail and only a short drive away from another canyon trail/waterfall so when it starts to warm up more I'll be able to make the majority of my workouts outside with Hailey and Avery. 
Anyway that's about it for me! 
I've got a lot that I want to work on and hopefully we'll be able to add all these new things into our somewhat busy schedule! 


Hailey:
My goodness I'm not sure what to say about Hailey.
 She is my crazy child.
She's a lot like me actually and I have to admit I love it.
Shes stubborn in just the way that a(n almost) 3 year old needs to be.
She is also the sweetest 3 year old around.
Hailey amazes me every day with the things that she learns and already knows.
I can't even count all the words and the sentences that she knows.
Her favorite thing to do is sing. 
A lot of times while she's playing she'll just start singing to herself. 
She sings while she's taking a bath.
She sings to her baby.
She sings to Avery.
She sings to mommy and daddy.
She sings to my parents.
She sings to her cousin Ray.
She sings while she's eating food.
She sings in the car.
She sings while we're grocery shopping.
She sings.
She most definitely sings.
And it is so amazing to see how many songs she knows! 
I sing two songs to Hailey every night before she goes to bed:
1. You Are My Sunshine
2. Happy by NeverShoutNever
I've sung both of those songs to her for quite a while and one night she sang along with me for the first time and knew all of the words.
No exaggerations, she knew every word in the right order.
Her favorite show to watch varies.
Right now it's the Power Puff Girls, but it was Daniel the Tiger for a long time and still occasionally is.
I love Daniel because they have SO many songs and Hailey knows every single one of them.
And she knows them for every mood she's in.
Daniel's songs have also been very influential.
When Hailey gets really upset or starts to throw a temper tantrum I'll sing this song:
Its okay to feel sad some times, little by little, you'll feel better again.
After I sing it Hailey stops crying or stops her temper tantrum and sings it back to me.
By the time she's done she's virtually forgotten the problem or has moved on.
It's crazy to see what good values they can learn from television shows even at this young of an age.
Hailey knows how to count to 20.
Sort of.
She says:
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 9, 8, 10.. and so on.
Its so funny, but she cant seem to get the 8, 9, 10 right. 
She also knows her ABC's because of a song.
Minus the L{MNO}P part.. haha. 
She doesn't do her colors quite as well, but she knows the basics.
She loves chicken nuggets and honey mustard.
She doesn't like eating anything without "sauce". 
She loves wearing boots. 
She loves playing outside.
She REALLY loves playing outside.
She loves to carry her baby doll around everywhere and if we leave the house without it she gets upset, but thank goodness she calms down when we tell her that baby stayed home to go night night.
She loves to color.
She has a pen and paper that she carries around everywhere because she just loves to scribble and draw circles.
For Christmas we got her a couple of dollar notebooks because she loves it so much!
She loves helping me cook.
We potty trained her in November 2014 and it was the best thing ever.
She loves to do the search and find books where she see's the item on the side of the page and has to find it in the picture somewhere.
She is amazing at puzzles. 
I had never done a puzzle with her, but I pulled one out (it was a 20 piece Disney puzzle) and she put it together without any help the first time!
She loves bath time.
She would live in the bath if she could.
But only if that bath was outside because she would also live outside if she could.
She loves dogs, but she's really scared of them too.
She's very polite.
She has a temper.
She is so shy around new people and whenever they talk to her default answer is always "yeah".
She is super helpful when she wants to be.
She loves saying: Oh. My. Goodness.
She wont take naps anymore in the afternoon when I tell her that its time for a nap, but when I tell her it's quiet time and I give her the opportunity to play and such she'll play for a while, but always go to sleep.
She loves mimicking any television show that she's currently obsessed with.
She loves to brush hair.
She loves it when Scotty or I hold her while she's falling asleep.
She loves giving hugs and kisses.
She loves (a little too obsessively) to say the prayer.
She loves her baby sister.
She's also almost 3 years old!
 She has such a huge personality and she's just like me.
She has a tender heart.
She wears her heart on her sleeves and emotions are the things that drive her.
She is so stubborn like her daddy and they butt heads quite a bit, but they also get along like two peas in a pod.
I get so frustrated with her all the time because of how much she clashes with me, but it never beats the overwhelming love that I have for her.


Avery:
The newest addition to our family arrived 12/12/2014!
I had a great pregnancy with Avery. 
I wasn't nearly as nauseous as I was with Hailey.
I gained less weight than my first pregnancy as well.
I felt like I had a lot more energy closer to the end.
Overall it was just a good pregnancy.
Avery was due on the 26th of December, but I always thought that she was due a week earlier because that's just what makes sense and we had an ultrasound at that beginning that gave us  different dates as well, but the doctor went with the later one just to be safe.
At 35 weeks I was dilated to a 2, 36 weeks I was at a 3, 37 almost a 4, and 38 weeks I went into labor dilated at a 4 or 5.
We had set the date to be induced on the 19th of December (a week early) so that I could make all the plans and arrangements for Hailey.
Plus we live in Twin Falls and my doctor was in Burley so I wanted to make sure that we would make it in time where my birth with Hailey was less than 2 hours start to finish.
On December 11th Scotty came home with flowers to celebrate our 4 years since he had proposed to me and I was sitting in our closet (also the shared space for my craft supplies since its a ridiculously big closet).
I had just started a fairly messy project thinking that I still had another week to wait so I just went to bed leaving the mess behind.
I woke up at 7 when Scotty got up for work, went to the bathroom then got back in bed.
 When I laid down I felt a warm and wet sensation and found blood so I went into the bathroom where Scotty was and realized that I had blood dripping down my legs.
I think that at that point I was in shock.
           The only thing I could tell Scotty was that I was bleeding.
I sat down and cleaned myself up and I just remember Scotty asking me what to do.
I really had no idea because I didn't know what was going on.
I knew that spotting was normal in a pregnancy, but this was a significant amount of blood and I was also passing blood clots.
Finally the bleeding stopped after a couple of minutes and I realized that I needed to just get up and get moving.
I told Scotty that I wasn't having any contractions and hadn't been at all that morning so I thought it would be safe to make the 45 minute drive to the hospital/doctors office in Burley.
I called my mom to let her know what was going on and I remember that was when my emotions hit me.
I told her that I had woke up bleeding so we were headed to the hospital.
When I said the words out loud I broke down crying.
Looking back and knowing the outcome now it seems like such a silly thing to do, but at that point I honestly was afraid that we were going to lose her.
We had our hospital bags packed for the most part, but there was still a few things we needed to grab and we were out of the house in a few minutes. 
I wasn't sure whether to go to the hospital right away or just schedule an appointment with my doctor, but ended up calling the hospital and they told me to come in to them just to be safe. 
The drive from our house to the hospital was one of the longest drives ever because I honestly didn't know what was going on and I was afraid that all of the blood meant there was some kind of a complication.
I hadn't felt her kick or move at all since I had woken up and she was usually very active in the mornings.
Feeling her kick for the first time on that drive literally made me cry. 
 I was so relieved. 
She only did it once or twice, but it was enough of a reassurance for the last few minutes of the drive.
 We met my parents at the hospital and they took Hailey and we headed inside.
I was so happy to see the nurse that was on staff, Mary!
She was my young womens leader at one point and she was also the nurse that was there to help deliver Hailey (we also had the same doctor in the same hospital) .
She got me hooked up to the monitors and we found out that Avery's heartbeat was strong.
 She checked me and found out that I was dilated to a 5 and 'my cervix was falling apart'.. haha.
So she got the doctor called and he gave the okay to keep me.
I was so happy knowing that we were gonna have our baby that day!
It was kind of a whirlwind after that.
I called my parents to let them know what was going on and that they would need to keep Hailey for the day.
We called both of Scotty's parents to tell that that she was going to be coming that day and I also called my sister because her and Jon were on their way to Canada.
The doctor came in to break my water a little bit later, but apparently he wasn't able to find it.
We were all a little confused about that because to my knowledge my water hadn't broken, I had already experienced it with Hailey so I knew what it felt like and I knew that it hadn't happened yet and I hadn't experienced any leaking.
Looking back at it now I think my water broke a little bit when I woke up that morning and that is why there was so much blood and why it was dripping down my legs.
I think that it didn't fully break though and it just slowly leaked out as I was going to the bathroom before the doctor got there to break it.
Labor was just about the same as Haileys, but I felt like I was able to breeze through this one a little easier. 
I was able to breath through the contractions and that helped a lot.
After an hour the contractions really picked up and I couldn't even stand up because of how intense the pain was.
I was slowly dilating, but I got stuck at an 8.
Avery wasn't turning the right way so the pressure wasn't being put in the right place to get me to fully dilate.
My body was ready though.
Thank goodness for Mary because she was the best nurse that I could have asked for.
I kept calling her back in to check to see if I was dilated, but I was still stuck at an 8.
At that point the pain was so severe because she was stuck so I got a dose of IV medicine to take off the edge.
I got to the point that the urge to push was so severe they told me just to go with that instinct.
So I did.
Pushing took longer and was much more painful than it was with Hailey because Avery was still turned the wrong way, but it only took about 30 mins and she was finally here! 
Scotty was amazing.
I honestly don't think I could have asked for a better husband.
He was very attentive and yet he knew when he needed to keep his distance and just ask what I needed.
He was also perfect because he didn't get offended when the pain was so intense that I just laid there without replying.
After I had her I started hemorrhaging.
Thank goodness it wasn't severe, but it did take him a few minutes to stop my bleeding.
Avery was born on 12/12/2014 at 12:50 pm.
She was 6 lbs 8 oz and 18 3/4 inches long.
I stayed in the hospital for one night and we were able to leave the next day.
I'm not going to get into all of the details because it was very frustrating and a process that lasted for the first 3 weeks of her life, but Avery had pretty bad jaundice.
She had to go back to the hospital and be readmitted the day after we left to stay under the bili lights.
 She had to get her foot pricked and her blood checked 4 times over the 26 hour period and finally her levels got low enough to send her home. 
We had to bring her back 2 days later to make sure it was still low.
After getting it checked we were sent to the doctors and he told us that it had shot up into the high risk zone and that we had to get her onto a bili blanket. 
She was checked every 2 days after that for the next 2 weeks.
I think we calculated it out to her having her foot pricked 14-16 times (a couple of those times being multiple pricks in one blood draw).
Needless to say it was very sad and frustrating.
Also needless to say, it was a beautiful day when she finally got into the low intermediate risk zone!
Avery has always been very clingy and she LOVES to be held! 
She co slept with me from day 1 and although I'm not against co sleeping.. I definitely didn't want to co sleep.
Every time I would lay her down on her own at night she would just scream and scream, but was always okay during the day.
So I gave in and co slept.
Her first night in her own bed was finally February 26th!
It was so exciting.
Scotty was already on nights though so it was also a little lonely knowing she was gonna be in her own bed.
Currently she's still in our room, but when we get a crib in the next few days we'll be putting her in Haileys room! 
It should be a fun new transition :)
So here's a little bit about Avery:
She brings such a light to our family.
The first smile I was able to catch on camera was January 9th and she started smiling just a few days (or maybe even only one day) before that so she was just under a month old.
At her 2 month appointment she weighed 12 lbs which puts her in the 90th percentile.
I love having a chubby baby because Hailey was always in the 5th percentile so its fun to have the opposite end of it now! 
And she's perfectly chubby, she doesn't look unhealthily chubby :) 
Avery loves to have conversations with me. 
She loves to coo.
She loves to open her mouth when she smiles.
She loves to occasionally stick her tongue out when she smiles.
She loves to look all over the place.
Its cute because I'll try to get her to focus on me, but every time I try to put myself in her line of sight she'll look away quickly.
She won't look at you unless she wants to..
But when she does, she just stares and it'll make you feel like you're the only person in her world!
She has been almost completely the opposite of her sister from day one.
She loves her big sister.
She absolutely LOVES bath time.
Sometimes when she gets upset Hailey will sing to her and she calms down pretty quickly.
She likes to bounce.
She likes to listen to music.
She loves it when I sing to her.
When I start to sing she loves to coo back at me.
She has a little bit of a dimple!
She has a double chin.. haha :)
Right now she is definitely a mama's girl.
She doesn't like tummy time.
She only sort of likes laying on her back on her play mat, but it really just depends on the day.
She likes sitting in her bumbo while I work on crafts or do things in the kitchen.
She's held her head up like a champ since she was 2 weeks and continues to do really well with holding herself up.
She loves to stand up and stretch out her legs.
Shes most active in the mornings and I love to lay in bed with her and Hailey while we wait for Scotty to get home.
She's also almost 3 months old!
She is amazing and I am so excited for the progress that she's making. 


The Move:
So another thing that happened in the last 6 months was us moving!
We moved out of our house in Rexburg on the last day of August and Hailey and I (with Avery in the womb) moved in with my parents.
Scotty had to work until the middle of September so he stayed with our amazing friends, the Nortons, while he finished out the last 3 weeks of work.
After those 3 weeks of a few trips halfway, Scotty driving to see us a few times, and us going to see him, he finally came came to live with us again :)
He had a few days off before starting work in Twin.
He drove a few times from Rupert to Twin, but decided the hour drive wasn't something that he wanted to do and even wasn't as safe because he kept getting tired on the drive so we made the decision to look for a place here.
We were able to find a couple that was selling their contract for their apartment.
It was a great apartment for a decent price and its only a mile from Scottys work so it was perfect! 
It's only 2 bedrooms so its kind of sad, but we love it and I definitely feel like I can call it home.
We moved in the middle of October.
We have our contract here for a few more months and then we have to make a decision on whether or not we want to stay or look at moving into something bigger/better price/or even maybe our own home.
But that is a conversation for another day because we have no idea what step we want to take next.
We've even considered transferring out of Twin Falls, but I still don't have the heart to move farther away from family.
We'll see where our journey takes us as we get closer to that point though.


Well if you've stuck with me this long, thanks! 
It's been 6 months (give or take) since my last post so there was a ton that I needed to catch everyone up on.

Long story short, we're all doing well and we have a happy and healthy family.
If I can stick with my goal then hopefully you'll be hearing from me next week.
Keep an eye out for my tutorials! 

Friday, August 15, 2014

A Much Needed Update on Our Little Family

I started to write a post last night thinking that the last time I had written was when Hailey was about 2 months old, but apparently I was wrong! 
I was reading through the post and it was written December 2013.
Knowing that it's still been a long time, I'm going to just give an update on the Van Lear clan with the things most important to us now and in the last year.

Anyway.. Here we are now! 
It is August 2014.
Its crazy to think about all of the things that we've been through in the last 3 1/2 years of our marriage, but it also still feels like such a short amount of time together.
And of course, in the scheme of things, it really is a short amount of time.
SO let me break this down into the important catergories: Scotty, Scotty's job, the upcoming move, me, my pregnancy, and Hailey.

Scotty: Like I said in the last post Scotty found a new hobby. 
He loves to forge! 
I was actually surprised when he picked up this hobby because it was so random, but I've really been impressed with the things that he's done.
And I love seeing him so excited and passionate about it as well! 
Its definitely not a cheap hobby, but it's fun to see him search for things at thrift stores, pawn shops, and anywhere else he can find a good deal. 
Its definitley not my favorite thing because I'd rather him spending time with me on his days off and not out in the shed...
But I love that he loves it so much :) 
He's really looking forward to hunting this year especially where we'll be closer to family again because that will give him a better chance at getting something! 
Other than hunting and forging Scotty mainly just spends time with Hailey and I.
It's nice to know I married a good man that loves his family.

Scotty's Job: Scotty has been at the Rexburg Walmart for a year and a half now.
Although there are ups and downs in every job he has really seemed to love the work that he's doing.
Not to mention, he is a good boss. 
I've never worked with Scotty so I don't know how he is at work, but I'm impressed with the amount of people that respect him and are willing to let him lead.
He has made some good friendships at this store so it will be hard to go, but it's definitely going to be for the best and we'll love the change.

The Upcoming Move: After being in Rexburg we've been trying to find a store closer to family and we're excited that this move will bring us close to my family and 3 hours closer to his. 
The only downfall of the move (besides the actual moving part) is definitely going to be the fact that Hailey and I will be moving in 2 weeks at the end of the month and Scotty won't be done with work in the Rexburg store until September 20th.
For convenience of getting people to rent the apartment we're in and the conveinece of being able to have my family help us move before harvest starts we need to move by the end of the month. 
We are lucky enough to have awesome friends that are willing to take Scotty in for the next couple of weeks.
It's going to be pretty weird not having my husband around, but it'll be okay :)

Me:  As for me, I graduated July 2013 with an Associates in general studies. 
I felt like I was trying to juggle being a mom with my schoolwork because I had been taking a full credit course load of classes even after I had Hailey. 
I went through so many majors trying to find out what I wanted to get a degree in and I felt like I was just wasting my time and money taking random and pointless classes. 
So I made the best decision for me and Hailey and I graduated with the many many credits I had accumulated. 
I still have the desire to learn and I'd love to take a few random classes here and there because I want to pursue an education, but I don't care about the degree anymore.
I absolutely love being a mother.
I always knew that I wanted to be a stay at home mom and I have not regretted that decision once. 
I'm so grateful to have a husband that loves his family and is able and willing to make that possible for us. 
My favorite hobbies right now are crafting and baking.
Baking is going to be the death of my kitchen I swear! 
My favorite thing to do is bake right after I clean the kitchen..
It's pretty counterproductive.
I also love crafting.
I like to sew, paint, crochet, recycle and repurpose. 
I'm really not that great at it, but I love to do it.
Right now I'm on a Star Wars kick :)
I repurposed a lamp with a Star Wars lamp shade and a nursery glider with matching Star Wars fabric.
We decided that a Star Wars theme would be awesome for our little girls! 
Scotty was pretty happy about that one.
I looked up some crochet Star Wars dolls as well and so far I have Leia and Yoda done. 
I'm going to work on a few Star Wars wall decorations, but soon I'll have a little bit of everything to decorate their room with. 

My pregnancy: Everything is going great with this pregnancy! 
I'm so excited to be having another little girl.
Back before we knew the gender I kept having dreams of Hailey with a little sister, but I never knew if that was just because I had experience with a little girl and I was dreaming from experience or if it was some sort of mothers intuition.
I thought for sure I was having a little girl and then a few days before I thought maybe it could be a boy. 
Everything about this pregnancy was so different from Haileys! 
With Hailey I had horrible nausea, horrible heartburn, I carried her high, her heartbeat was high, Hailey loved to kick me whenever I would push or apply pressure, and I had a lot of energy throughout the pregnancy.
With this pregnancy my nausea comes occasionally, I rarely get heartburn, this baby is being carried so low, her heartbeat is at least 20 bpm lower, this little girl always likes to shy away whenever pressure is applied, and I always feel so lethargic.
Once I took all of that into account I started to question whether or not I could be having a little boy.
I was happy to find out we were going to have healthy little girl! 
Other than being lethargic all the time my pregnancy is great and we're both doing well.
I'm almost 22 weeks along and we're so anxious to welcome our little girl into the world this December. 

And lastly Hailey: Hailey is doing so well! 
I love seeing the progress that she makes every day.
She is always so social and she loves to sing.
Every night after I put her in bed I can hear her singing in her bed.
I think she likes to sing her stuffed animals to sleep.
She is also currently obsessed with stuffed animals and sleeps with hoards of them on her bed. 
She really only cares about about 7 of them though: Mickey, Minnie, monkey, other monkey, puppy, baby puppy, and glow worm :)
Shes pretty adorable. 
She loves to play with her toys.
She loves watching Jake and the Neverland Pirates and anything Mickey Mouse.
She's been saying sentences much more lately and I love to hear her try to piece things together and make sense of everything.
My favorite thing is when she says 'I love you mommy' before I say it first because it feels like it means just a little more when the original thought comes directly from her.
She is growing so big!
Although shes a stinker pretty often, we love her so much.
Shes going to be an amazing big sister as well.

Anyway thats about it for our family!
A lot of things are new and a lot of things are the same, but just slowly progressing like everything does with time.
Hopefully the next time I sit down to write a blog post it won't be 2015 yet :)   


Sunday, July 13, 2014

Pregnancy

This is a personal thing for me and it's not necessarily easy for me to share it, but it's something that I feel very strongly about:
Pregnancy is a personal subject. 
Scotty and I had been trying to get pregnant for 1 year and 2 months before we were blessed with this current pregnancy. Throughout that time of trying I had been asked multiple times if I was pregnant yet or I was told by people that they thought I was pregnant because I had been sick for a few days. 90% of the time after people would bring it up, I would just cry. Every little time I would get sick and nauseous I felt like I might be pregnant so I would excitedly take a pregnancy test. After countless negative tests I finally got to the point where it hurt too much to take another so even the times I thought I might be, I refused to do another one for the fear of having that heartbreak again. Then I would be asked again if I was pregnant and the disappointment I had been feeling washed over me again as I was reminded by someone every couple of weeks. One of the worst things that I heard after I had finally become pregnant again was when someone would say, "I knew you were pregnant!" I would get so angry because the people that said that were the ones constantly asking. So of course when I finally became pregnant they were right, but they were wrong all of the other 14 months we had been trying and they had been asking. There was no reason they should be feeling pride in finally "being right" when they had helped cause some of the pain I had to endure for 14 months. 
Pregnancy always seems to be a game for everyone else when they get to guess when you're pregnant, what the gender is, when the baby is coming, what it will look like, how much it will weigh, how long you'll be in labor, blah, blah, blah. All of that is fun and I've even participated in it myself, but people take it as a general rule of thumb that they can do it with every woman and their pregnancies. 
The thing I'm emotionally having a hard time with right now is that everyone is convinced I'm having a boy. And not only that, but they apparently "know" that it's going to be a boy (I guess God whispered to them that we were now pregnant and having a boy). I cannot express how sad it makes me to think that there could be disappointment for the gender of my child. This child is such a blessing to Scotty, Hailey, and I especially after the pain and heartache of waiting so long and it breaks my heart to think that people already have this planned out. This child isn't our only chance to have a boy. If we have a girl, then everyone can be patient and wait another couple of years until we get pregnant with another. And not only that, but be excited and happy knowing that there is another little girl in our family. There is absolutely nothing wrong with only having girls.
My children will never be a disappointment to me. Even if Scotty and I are blessed to have a household of girls, I will be so happy and content with my life and my family. I want a little boy next, but my life will not be lacking in any way if we have a little girl. 
Let me get this straight I really do think it's fun for people to guess, but when I've corrected them saying that they don't know it's a boy and that it could be a girl they blatantly ignore me and tell me what they "know" my child is a boy. If I end up having a boy then good job to all those that GUESSED correctly. It's fun to GUESS and be right about the gender. 
Some mothers say that they know what they're having and have even been able to feel the moment of conception and if that true, then that is such a great feeling and experience for them. The only way I can tell I'm pregnant is when I start throwing up in the morning. I can't tell you that I know the gender of this little one. I've had dreams that I'm having another little girl, but that could be just because I already know what a baby girl is like and it could be because I really am having another little girl and that's the little sense of revelation that Heavenly Father is giving to me as the mother. I don't like hearing people tell me I'm wrong when they don't have any idea what this baby is other than just their strong desire for it to be a boy. 
Hoping and saying that it's a boy after I'm already pregnant isn't going to change its gender. Just love my little girl or my little boy with no reservations of what you wanted it to be. It's not your choice, it's not even my choice. All you can do is choose to be disappointed or excited. Stop asking people if they're pregnant, you're basically asking them if they're having sex and really that is no ones business but theirs. Not only that, but you could be bringing up painful memories of miscarriages, countless doctor visits, or even their inability to conceive a child of their own. I don't know when the world decided that it was okay to be in everyone else's personal business even when they're family, but just stop asking and be considerate of the possible heartache of others.  If someone wants you to know they're pregnant they'll tell you, you don't have to ask. 
And most importantly to me right now, remember that you don't KNOW what my child is.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Few and Far Between

It is definitely time for an update!
Hailey was around 2 months old after my last post.

There are a few things that are new in our lives.
And theres a lot thats not.

Can you believe that it's already Christmas Eve!? 
In just over a week it will be 2014. 

So. What's going on with us?
Let's start with Hailey.
I am so impressed with my daughter. 
Every day she is learning something new and teaching me something new. 
She has such an amazing personality and she's most definitely my little light.
She says so many words I can't even count.
Here's a few:
Hi, hello, mama, papa, mommy, daddy, yes, yeah, no, juice, cheese, bite, bye bye, I, love, you, fishy, kitty, puppy, ray, coco, jenny, jon, matt, row row, tia, carl, jakob, natalie, alexis, please, thank you, oh, can, have, eye, nose, feet, shoes, socks, night night, paci, more, one, two, three, book, baby, go, ready, set, car, choo choo, train, toy, and many many more!
Plus she'll mimic anything that is said to her.
She's also been able to say a prayer for about a month and a half now :)
She's slept all the way through the night since she was 3 months old and in her own bed from birth.
At 10 months she moved to a crib in her own bedroom.
And then 11 months she moved into her toddler bed and slept all the way through the night her first time :)
She has truly been a blessing on my sleeping schedule! 
She most definitely gets her love of sleep from me.
She started crawling just after 6 months.
Her first official steps were at 11 months.
She learned to say hi and wave that same day as well. 
She currently has 10 teeth, the top middle 4 and 2 molars, her bottom middle 2, and 2 bottom molars. 
She takes teething like a champ!
I never even knew when she was getting teeth. 
She was a little late with her teeth, her first one was around 8 months I think, but 5 more came quickly after.

Hailey is crazy cute. 
Seriously.

She is so fun, so cute, so loveable, so funny, and she always keeps me smiling :)
She started her "terrible twos" around a year and 2 months.
But she's still pretty awesome.
She goes to nursery now as well! 
The first Sunday leaving her was hard and she still cries when I leave and needs to be held during, but she's doing much better now.

And I think that just about sums it up for Hailey right now!

As for Scotty:
He promoted to an Assistant Manager at walmart. 
That brought us to Rexburg, ID. 
We've lived here since February and we'll probably be here for another year.
He switched his rotation from days to nights and that sucks for me, but Scotty loves the work and the people.
He had his birthday in July and he turned 26.
What an old man!
Scotty found an awesome hobby these past couple of months as well.
Blacksmithing!
It's a pretty cool hobby and he's made a few knives out of railroad spikes already.
When we get a house and get settled down he'll be able to make a larger forge in a better ventilated space.
Until then he'll just do his forging on and off when he gets the time :)

He also enjoys long walks on the beach while watching the sunset and sipping a Mountain Dew.

As for me:
Hm. Where to start.
Well first and foremost, I'm done with school!
I graduated July 2013 in general studies.
I would have preferred to have a major, but I was just going though the motions of school trying to juggle homework and time with Hailey. 

Now I'm just a modern day homemaker :)

It really is fun though and definitely rewarding. 
I love to craft.
I'm not always amazing at it, but I'm definitely good at what I do.
One day I'm hoping to get enough energy to make a lot of things so I can start selling them and help contribute to the income. 
Selling crafts and continuing to be a stay at home mom is something I'm going to working on for the foreseeable future.
I really am lucky to have such an amazing husband that is willing and able to support his family.

Believe it or not, that's about it for me.

A lot definitely has changed in the past year and a half, but there's still a lot that's stayed the same.

Overall, my family is awesome!
I'm hoping to update this once a month, but who knows, maybe I'll become ambitious enough to update once a week! 
Thanks for reading and I hope that you have a Merry Christmas and a wonderful New Year! 
:)

Friday, June 8, 2012

It's Been Longer Than A While!

It has been FAR too long since I have last posted!
Here's whats happened in the past two months:
Our sweet baby girl was born,
a new semester of school started,
I quit my job,
AND its now (supposedly) summer! 

Lets start at the bottom of the list and work our way up.

I am SO happy that it is finally summer. 
Its starting to look like the weather might get warmer and I'll be able to spend more time outside with my little Sweet Pea.
We had a crazy ridiculous storm the other day though. 
The day before, it was so warm and the wind was blowing like crazy, but it was a warm wind.
Then the next day it was so windy and cold.
We went from the high being 92 to the high being 52 just the next day.
The wind was approx. 18 MPH with gusts of 31 MPH.
When we left our house it was raining and we went through a patch of hail, then rain again.
Lets just say the weather was crazy.
Despite this bad weather, I have high hopes for summer.
It looks as though it should be getting warmer in the next couple weeks and I sure hope its right.

As for my job:
I am pleased to announce that I quit! 
I was going to quit back in November, but my boss decided that she could work with me and my school schedule so I ended up working one day a week.
I was put on "modified bed rest" because I was dilated to 3 cm at 35 weeks so I was told to stay away from work until my 6 week postpartum check up.
Hailey was born the 9th and school started the 17th.
With Hailey, School, and Work, I knew I wouldn't be able to be successful in my endeavors so I took one for the team and decided to quit my job.
I'm glad I did so because I don't know how I would have handled doing it all.

Speaking of school:
I'm halfway through right now with 6 weeks remaining.
Thank goodness.
I'm doing pretty good with my schooling right now, but its hard not having time to do things that I want to do.
I am a slave to school.
Right now I am taking 12 credits; 5 classes.
Foundation capstones, Nutrition, Pakistan, Parenting, and a Science class.
Nothing too exciting.
After this semester I will officially be done with foundation classes.
The only bad thing about that is that I have to decide what I want to major in.
During my first few semesters I took quite a few Elementary Education classes so I'm hoping that I'll decide to do something that will involve those classes.
Otherwise I'll have to start back at the beginning with no major classes and work my way up.
I think I've come to a pretty good conclusion:
I need to defer next semester.
I've been going to school for a year and a half straight..
.. Thats too long if you ask me.
If I defer a semester I wont have to go back until my next assigned track, which is Spring.
If thats the case then I have from now until April to decide.
Plus, it would be pretty great to just take that time to be a mom.

Speaking of motherhood... :)
3 days after my last post, Hailey was born :)
I had my baby shower on April the 7th and some amazing people showed up and all were so generous in helping me start a wardrobe for Hailey.
On April 9th, I went to my doctors appointment.
Dr. Cannon checked me and said, "Well you're dilated to a 5 and I feel inclined to send you over to the hospital to get you on a pitocin drip."
My heart soared :) I was SO happy to find out that I would be having my baby in a few short hours. 
We went to the hospital and the Doctor was going to break my water on his lunch, but wasnt able to because the nurse hadnt gotten my IV in yet....
Thank goodness that was the case because he still had appointments that day.
I got on the pitocin and stayed on it from about 2:00 until 5:40 pm when Dr. Cannon came to break my water.
After he broke my water I actually started to feel contractions. 
They hurt.
Bad.
I got one dose of IV medications and that was is.
I started pushing at 7:04 and 19 minutes later at 7:23 our beautiful baby girl was born.
What an amazing experience.
Hailey was born weighing in at 6 lbs 10 oz.
She then went to 6 lbs 3 oz.
She was 19.5 inches long.
Theres so much more I could tell, but probably nothing else any of you would like to hear.
Just the small things that a mother cherishes.
In the first month Hailey slept...
..... A lot..
But now as shes gotten older she is awake a lot more often in the day and only wakes me up one time every night. 
She sleeps in her bassinet and although I like cuddling with her, I know I'll be grateful for that independence later on in her life.
At her one month appointment she was 8 lbs 5 oz.
She was 21 inches long.
Hailey smiles.
All the time.
And its amazing :)
The first time she smiled on purpose was awesome!
It was 5 or 6 in the morning and I had just been awake with her about an hour before that so I was SO tired!
She was wide awake and I had her propped up against my legs.
I looked at her and I started talking and making faces.
She sat there with a little perplexed look on her face and a HUGE grin spread across her face.
It melted my heart.
Now she smiles all the time. 
She's an amazing baby.
She even smiles when she gets her diaper changed.
If I stick my tongue out at her, she'll start to stick her tongue out and play with her mouth.
Theres other little quirks about her that I just love.
Hailey has her 2 month doctor appointment on Monday. 
And her immunizations on the 14th.
I'm gonna be so sad when she gets her immunizations :( 
I had a hard time when they needed to prick her foot and take blood for the bilirubin test. 
Its so hard listening to her cry and not being able to do anything about it.

Well.... There is SO much more I could tell you, but I dont want to ramble on :)
I think I've hit the key points and I'll make sure to keep updates better than I have since she was born.

Heres a few pictures of my little family of mine :)
Hailey and I

My Beautiful Family

I Love Her

My Two Favorite People In The World

Our Family of Three

I Love Them SO Much!

Friday, April 6, 2012

38 Week Update :)

I believe its finally time for an update!
Not a whole lot of exciting things have happened in the past month.
I can't remember if I posted this or not, but I was put on bed rest at 35 weeks of my pregnancy.
My body has decided to be an overachiever and the doctor has even told me that my body is acting like its on its second or third child.
At 35 weeks I was dilated to a 3 and Haileys head was significantly lower than most babies at that stage in my pregnancy.
The next week, I was still at a 3 and she had moved down just a little more.
Finally I had made it to 37 weeks, but I ended up getting sick and dehydrated again sending me to the hospital to get me back on some IV fluids.
At that point (it was last Saturday) I was checked and dilated to 3.75 and 85% effaced.
I went to my doctors appointment on Monday and had been dilated to a 4.
That appointment was particularly upsetting.
The previous week the doctor had told me that if I went in and I was dilated to a 4 or a 5 then they would send me over to the hospital and get me on a pitocin drip.
(4 or 5 is considered active labor)
I went in to the appointment, got checked, was told I was 4, then the doctor followed that by saying that he'd like to try to keep her in there another week.
The worst thing a doctor can do is give a pregnant woman false hope.
I was so sad when I left.
There I was, expecting to be able to have my baby at the beginning of the week if I had dilated more, then finding out I had dilated more, then leaving with the heavy heart of knowing I wouldn't be holding my baby that day.
I moped around most of the day.
Then I went for a walk and my husband took me out to dinner :)
I started having lots of contractions around 6:30 and they were continuous and steady for 5 hours.
I called the hospital and asked what they thought I should do.
In our prenatal classes we learned that to distinguish if its real labor or not then you need to do something opposite of what you're doing.
If you're walking around, sit or lie down. If youre sitting or lying down, walk around.
Well I had been fluctuating between the two and my contractions stayed tried and true.
I ended up going into the hospital that night to get checked out.
Well... As soon as I sat down on the bed, my contractions slowed down.
Talk about depressing.
Anyway, I was checked again and was dilated to 4 and 90% effaced.
Why in the world is this baby not coming yet!?
Today I am officially 38 weeks and I've come to the conclusion that no matter how ready my body is to have this baby, she's not coming for another two weeks.
My doctor needs to stop saying that he expects her to come at any time.
All doctors need to stop saying this to pregnant women.
It crushes them when it turns out to be false.
My cousins water broke today (shes due a week before me) and I'm so excited to hear that she's going to get to hold her little man soon!
I'm jealous though because she was only dilated to a 1.5 and has been for the past 3 weeks.
My sisters brother in law and his wife had their baby a week and a half ago. Her water broke when she was only dilated to a 1 (she was also a week before her due date)
I don't know why my body is tormenting me like this, but I hope it gives in and helps get my little girl here sooner.
My next doctor appointment is on Monday and I'm really going in with no expectations or hopes.
I wish she would come, but I doubt I'll be so lucky.
I'm expecting it to take the 2 weeks (give or take a few days) until my due date.
She's stubborn like her parents.
All I can say is that I'm excited to meet my little girl and I can wait another 2 or 3 weeks, just as long as it means she's healthy and doing well.


The amazingly cute baby shower invite my sister made :)
I hope to see you there!

Saturday, March 10, 2012

What A Bunch of Creeping Creepers

So today was yet another day of cleaning, homework, and laundry.
Although it was a little better because I got to spend some time with my husband :)
He woke up and couldn't fall back asleep so we ate some lunch together, watched V for Vendetta, had some serious and much needed cuddling time, then went for a walk together.
Then of course he went back to sleep.
Overall it was a good day!
However.. There comes that point in the day when I get bored.
So to fill that void of boredom I went on to a fun website called
randomcreepyguy.com
All of the pictures that I'm going to be posting on my blog came from that wonderful website.
I have to say that I found some of these enjoyable and others were not so much.
I choose some of my favorites to add and I hope some of them make you laugh too!
Please be warned that I may try to make a little bit of my own humor by adding captions at the bottom of what I think should be said.

Bear with me, I understand I'm not a comedian, although I tend to make myself laugh quite a bit.



If the fact that shes hiding behind the plants watching you isnt creepy enough, try looking into those soulless eyes.


If I was the one taking this picture and I looked at it to see how it turned out...
I don't think I would ever look at my cat the same way again.
Or be alone in a room with it.


Well that guy's a little old to be here.
.... Wait....
Is he naked!?
0.o


Mr. Clean meets Smurf... ?


Johnny was the weird kid down the street so the guys never invited him to hang out.
Little did they know..
Johnny always invited himself.


I'm not sure which is worse, the look on the girls face in the background, or the fact that I have no idea what that girl is dressed up as.
A banana?.. A chicken.??


I have nothing to say about this one other than the fact that the look on his face makes him a complete creeper.


Man or woman?
There's long hair, but facial hair.
.............


Nothing says a perfect wedding day like:
An old man standing in his tighties with his leg propped up on a rock.
Maybe he's trying to get a.. "better view."
Perhaps he's trying to persuade the bride that she could have something better than her groom-to-be.


Little did they know, that clown had been following them around all night.



I thought elves were supposed to be Santas happy little helpers.
This elf looks more like a minion about to take over the workshop.


And if you look to the left you will see the rare and terrifying Bar Troll.
Don't get to close though, they get a little violent if they feel threatened or provoked.
Also, please refrain from pictures because the flashes may cause it to go into a craze.


"Its so dark in here I can hardly see anything! I'm gonna hold my eye open while you take a picture so the flash bright flash doesnt make me blink."
............


*Warning-Seeing something like this at such a young age might scar you from birthdays permanently.*
Please child, for the love of everything good, do not turn to your right.


This wouldnt be that bad of a picture... If that guy didnt have that look on his face.


Is it just me or does Aunt Marsha look like she's not feeling so well.. ?
Maybe we should take her to lie down, far away from sharp objects and small children.


Little do they know, this guy isn't dressed up for Halloween.


It's not very intimidating if you go deer hunting and there's a deer wanting revenge in the background.. But for some reason, I think revenge by bear would be a little worse.


Little Esther just sits in the background waiting for the right moment.


Everyone's partying and having a great time!
.. .....Wait.... ..
Is he holding a gun!?
This sith just got real.


Seth had very explicit instructions to watch his little sister Cindy all night to make sure nothing happened.
Cindy and her date were unaware of this and didnt find out until looking at the pictures later the next day.


I'm really not sure if the guy lurking in the top right corner is creepier than the guy in the picture on the left...


Maybe if she was smiling it wouldnt be quite as creepy...
Nope.. Pale face, dark eyes, red lips.
That in and of itself is pretty darn creepy.



Well I hope you enjoyed these as much as I did.
It's great to know that there are so many weirdo's out there.
Lets just hope we dont end up with a creeper photo of our own!